Are you listening?

What the hell is wrong with my mind? why can't it forget few things, its 5 AM in the morning and I am not able to sleep because my mind is wandering, thinking about the things which only bring pain and sadness. Why can't I learn to accept the truth and move on and why does I crib a lot? If god is there then I want answers from him right now, why did I have to suffer all this? I want to ask him, If you really are someone who listens to prayers why are you not listening to mine? May be people are right in saying "God is dead. God remains dead. And we have killed him" because he no longer bothers to care for those who call him for help. I have asked for only one thing from you in last so many years and yet you have not bothered to grant me that wish, I'll say you are the reason for me turning into someone who doesn't believe in you.

Why?

Why do we do things which we do? Why do we behave in certain way? Isn’t everything already written in our destiny? Even if you change yourself, does it guarantee that it will change what is in store for you? Isn’t sometime being happy is the only option because being sad will not change anything? There’s a time when you believe in something and there comes a time when your belief is shattered to pieces, what you can do at that moment other than cursing your destiny? Isn’t god the supreme of all who has decided what will happen in your life? Can you fight against him? Why is he taking the test of only few? Why are there people who never face any odds throughout the life and why there are those who are against the odds every other second? WHY?

Awful

Days don’t pass; you are neither awake nor asleep,

In the darkness of the night; your lonely heart weeps,

You sowed a seed of love’s tree in your mind,

But sadly it bears no fruit, so you can’t reap.

When you start to love some one, it never hurts,

It’s an awesome feeling; a feeling of comfort,

But slowly it starts turning awful,

When you realize that the other person doesn’t reverts.