Monday, July 20, 2009

Weird fear!!

It been long since I penned down something, so here comes a post which is kind of an intermediate for something interesting. I am writing this one to make sure all my readers (how so ever few they are in number, they are precious to me) keep connected to me through my blog. I hope you people will not be bored by this post of mine.

When you are young you have all kind of weird fears, you are afraid of something which will give you a moment to laugh during the rest of your life. There were many things from which I was afraid of during my childhood, but one particular thing which scared the hell out of me was that of getting my photo clicked in family function or parties or even at the shop for passport pics.

There is a whole collection of pics at my home in which I am not even looking towards the camera and then there are also those pics in which I am acting as if I am sleeping. I would stand in a group and then just close my eyes and leaving my head into the hands of gravity. I still look at those pics and have a great laugh on me being so weird. Then came the time when I could muster enough energy to see towards the camera but without any emotions. Look on my face used to be of a person who has been forced to stand there. If you look at those pics you will think that I am not at all happy to be there. It was not that I was not happy but I wasn’t able to stand that one moment when everyone was looking at me and I had to look towards the camera. There were thoughts running in my “whether I should smile or look away” and in that confusion my pic was clicked every time. Many time in a party I used to hide myself away from my parents eyes so that they could not call me to get myself clicked.

It was like this till few years back when I got my first camera phone and started clicking self portraits. I consciously made an effort to smile every time I clicked my pic, and then with practice I over came this weird shortcoming of not smiling in a photo. No more I feared about getting myself clicked in any functions. Now even in group pics there is an effort put in by me to smile, although sometimes I over do it ;) but I know I will be perfect soon in this if not in anything else.

P.S: Please let me know what this fear/phobia known as?

God bless and keep smiling


Rahil said...

No specific term for dis phobia, did quite a search but no results.

anyways i enjoyed readin ur weird fear :)

Varuna Raina said...

well i am too antagonistic to you in dat way..coz i alwaz njoyed being clicked then and even now...:)
my albulms are filled with fotos in all hues and moods..
bro,have panache and confidence while getting clicked..u dnt need to overdo it..
and when u are calm,clear and bright..the spark wont be hidden from d fotos...!!
123..say cheese...and click!!!!
stay happy...

Sukriti said...

well a nice one...quite funny...actually me too have this fear to sum extent...i hope that we two will overcome it soon...

Confused_Soul said...

@ rahil : oh then this phobia must be unique.. :D

@ varuna di : aap to mere se similarho hi nai sakte...kyunki hum hum hain baaki sab _ _ _ _....well u no the rest of it ;)

@ sukriti : well m sure we will sis..and the pic in the blog is first step towards it...smiling siblings... :)

piyush said...

Well I too have the same problem..I have practised a lot to smile while my photo is being clicked but of no use..Even to this day I m always confused whether to smile or not during that clicking moment...

Confused_Soul said...

@piyush : no problem with practice u will surely overcome this habit ;)