Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Kyunki Fighter humesha jeet ta hai!!!

There was a time when I wanted to be freedom fighter; and then there was time when I wanted to be an army officer; and then there was time when I wanted to be an engineer. My dreams kept on changing with time but i never gave up because i used to have a very good hand writing and that good hand writing was attributed to "fighter" series of Rotomac pen, which had a tagline "kyunki fighter humesha jeet ta hai" (I wanted to justify the post title here)  and they did have another tagline too "likhte likhte love ho jaaye" but i didn' like Raveena tandon.

There was one thing which I realized pretty early in my life that I can't be an army officer because i never liked running, the only time I used to run was when some stray dog in the street used to bark at me. So as a 4 year old, I wanted to be the guy who sings inside the stereo we had because I liked the songs he sang. I destroyed three audio cassettes by puling out the magnetic tape so that I can find out who that person is but I was heart broken (almost a jaw broken too by the thrashing I got from my dad :P) as I could find no one there.

I left the aim of being the guy who sings inside the stereo and decided to be the guy who makes bowlers dance to his tunes; I wanted to be a cricketer like Sachin but as luck would have it I realized pretty soon that I couldn’t be a cricketer as I was not good at defending game; Also 1996 was the time of emergence of Rahul Dravid and VVS Laxman and not Ravindra Jadeja Yusuf Pathan, 20-20 was not invented/born till then else I could have been a great 20-20 IPL player atleast ;). People always tried to curb my attacking style of play which would have easily given Harbhajan Singh Virender Sehwag a run for his money. Heart broken again I left this dream of mine too so as to move forward.

In between I wanted to be a terrorist freedom fighter, about which I have written detailed account in my other post and simultaneously I wanted to be private detective too inspired by the TV series Byomkesh Bakshi but my habit of cross questioning didn’t go down well with my teachers at school, specially when I used to ask them the reason for asking me a particular question and not my friend. I still remember the case in which I uncovered the conspiracy involving the school’s bell boy and my social studies teacher wherein my SST period was always extended by full 45 seconds although no one showed any interest to my findings but I was really inspired by this quote MK Gandhi at that point of time “First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win”. I don't know why but my case ended at laugh part only which shattered my dream of being Sherlock Holmes.

Finally I was in last year of my school and I wanted to be a doctor but the thought of studying for at least 10 more years just made me chicken out at last moment (I missed the cut off in entrance too but my failure can easily be attributed to psychological effect of the thought I had) and I joined engineering college and realized that I always wanted to be one, I loved playing with electricity, electric wires (some time live ones too) but soon I realized that engineering is not about electricity and electric wires only, it is about assignments, monthly tests and semester exams, if MBBS was 10 year pain then BE surely was 4 year torture in terms of workload we had.

So now I am an engineer but if you ask me I don’t like to be one because I don’t get the mental peace doing work I do and neither there is any satisfaction and I am saying all this because I think it sounds cool. To be true I feel I am working in best job which a person like me can have and I do get paid handsomely at the end of the month although I would not mind if the monetary benefit is increased because that will only increase my mental peace and satisfaction which really is an important aspect of one’s life.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Random thought.

There comes an instance in one's life when one has to choose between his/her dedication to a relation or his/her own benefit. no matter what others say, no matter if people turn against you for your decision but never choose your own benefit because although it will earn you satisfaction in short run but in longer run you will loose a relation which was build on the basis of trust.

People say that priority of a relation in one's life keep on changing but I feel some relations are there to be kept no matter what your priority is. We can't weigh everything in terms of pros and cons, there are always something's which are way above that.

Are you listening?

What the hell is wrong with my mind? why can't it forget few things, its 5 AM in the morning and I am not able to sleep because my mind is wandering, thinking about the things which only bring pain and sadness. Why can't I learn to accept the truth and move on and why does I crib a lot? If god is there then I want answers from him right now, why did I have to suffer all this? I want to ask him, If you really are someone who listens to prayers why are you not listening to mine? May be people are right in saying "God is dead. God remains dead. And we have killed him" because he no longer bothers to care for those who call him for help. I have asked for only one thing from you in last so many years and yet you have not bothered to grant me that wish, I'll say you are the reason for me turning into someone who doesn't believe in you.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Oh! so tender

The quick blinking of your eye,
Like the clutter of wings of a butterfly,
Oh! So tender it is.

Your lips on the verge of smile,
Making me loose my guile,
Oh! So tender it is.

You talking innocently like a kid,
Forgetting line of yours in the mid,
Oh! So tender it is.

Bothering you the loose strands of your hair,
And you getting annoyed due to something so rare,
Oh! So tender it is.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Really a Wonder!!

“Your beauty never ceases to amaze me.”

That is just a small compliment to one of the beautiful creation I have ever seen and it seems to be more beautiful every time we meet. No doubt it is one of the 7 wonders of the world – The Taj Mahal.

I have been to Taj 4 times and every time it seems more beautiful to me than my previous visit. I just love to be there. The sheer size of the structure is what amazes me, even if you have seen it on screen, the moment you see it in person you will realize that it is way bigger than what you have thought. One should visit Agra to see Taj once in their life time. 

Thursday, September 15, 2011


I don’t drink and for all those who try to force me into drinking I request not to do so. I don’t have any issues with you people drinking but when you try to convince me into that it just makes me angry. How can one enjoy his life more when on the high and not being in his/her senses, so please don’t give explanations which suit you because I wont be convinced with them. 

Wednesday, September 7, 2011


A collection of some of the best quotes i have read about the thing I just love to have; CHOCOLATES

Chocolate – The best buddy.
 There's nothing better than a good friend, except a good friend with chocolate.
 Forget love ... I'd rather fall in chocolate!
 Chocolate is a perfect food, as wholesome as it is delicious, a beneficent restorer of exhausted power. It is the best friend of those engaged in literary pursuits.

Chocolate – The anti-depressant.
 After eating chocolate you feel godlike, as though you can conquer enemies, lead armies and entice lovers.
 If you are not feeling well, if you have not slept, chocolate will revive you. But you have no chocolate! I think of that again and again! My dear, how will you ever manage?
 Chocolate is nature’s way of making up for Mondays.

Chocolate – the perfect food.
 Other things are just food. But chocolate’s chocolate.
 There are four basic food groups: milk chocolate, dark chocolate, white chocolate and chocolate truffles.

Chocolate – Mind over matter.
 Strength is the ability to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands - and then eat just one of those pieces.
 There’s more to life than chocolate, but not right now.

Chocolate – The irresistible.
 Chocolate, Here today ... Gone today!
 Researchers have discovered that chocolate produces some of the same reactions in the brain as marijuana. The researchers also discovered other similarities between the two but can't remember what they are.
 The 12-step chocoholics program: Never be more than 12 steps away from chocolate!

And last a quote to change what is being taught in school,
 Never mind about 326 BC Alexander the Great, 1556 Akbar the Great. Such things are not going to affect one’s life ... but 1932 the Mars Bar and 1936 Maltesers and 1937 the Kit Kat - these dates are milestones in history and should be seared into the memory of every child in the country.


Why do we do things which we do? Why do we behave in certain way? Isn’t everything already written in our destiny? Even if you change yourself, does it guarantee that it will change what is in store for you? Isn’t sometime being happy is the only option because being sad will not change anything? There’s a time when you believe in something and there comes a time when your belief is shattered to pieces, what you can do at that moment other than cursing your destiny? Isn’t god the supreme of all who has decided what will happen in your life? Can you fight against him? Why is he taking the test of only few? Why are there people who never face any odds throughout the life and why there are those who are against the odds every other second? WHY?

Monday, September 5, 2011

M...a Stupid Guy

Its 4.40 AM in the morning and as always I am not at all feeling sleepy. My stock of Dairy milk which I bought to use as anti-depressant over the weekend is finished and the depression fit has just began. So as a second best option after chocolates I am here scribbling down a post for my blog.

What does “being serious about life” means? I think I have been hearing this phrase a lot these days. I say I think because the very moment someone start to give me ‘Gyan’ about life I just turn off my listening device because according to me I don’t think I am not serious about life. I may not look serious, I may not utter my serious plans but I am very seriously working to seriously achieve serious targets. This post is seriously turning very serious. Wasn’t this supposed to be the second best thing after dairy milk? Oh god! Why didn’t I buy more of chocolates? So going ahead on a serious note….no just going ahead…Let me write a story about a very stupid boy who thought he is smart.

M was very happy today, he found a razor lying on the table. Now M was a very naughty 5 year old kid, his parents made sure that he never gets access to razors and scissors. Just a month back he has cut open an audio cassette just to check whether the audio cassette was like a “Chirag” which housed "Djinn" to sing the songs or not. So M was kind of on cloud nine when he picked up the razor. He couldn’t believe his luck; he has been vying for a razor since many days. Although M was too young to understand the quote “When you want something, the entire universe conspires in helping you to achieve it” but I am sure he must have felt something very close to that feeling.  “I need to check razor’s sharpness”, he thought to himself. He was well versed with scientific procedure of experimenting and only then believing. He tried to check the sharpness on pieces of paper first. “Yeah it’s sharp”, he said in an enthusiastic tone. But then he realized he needed to check on something hard as he would soon be using it on such material. So he engraved his name on the arm rest of a sofa. Satisfied with the sharpness of the weapon he possessed he started for his final task. He went to the roof of his house, used a long stick to pull the main electricity lines (power cables from electricity pole to his house) into his hands and with one swift motion tried to cut the wire with the razor. What followed was a sound of a cracker bursting.

That stupid guy M was me and I am very lucky to be alive still. My thumb and index finger were burnt but I was able to hide the injury from my parents. I really don’t know what led me to do this stupid act, what was I thinking but now I laugh on my stupidity and thank god for making me learn the lesson in a bit of soft way. I could have been dead or alive with a serious disability.  

I did tell this story to my Dad but only after 16 years and I still had no answer to question why did I do it? Stupid Me!!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

God is there for you.

Thing to remember is that God is there for you,
He favors the one, who is always true,
For him you are among the wonderful few,
He’ll make sure with all his force,
That to your worries you bid an adieu.

Don’t listen to what others have to say,
They have a tendency; every-time saying nay,
Always standing in successful one’s way,
Not known to them is fact,
That for such acts they have to pay.

He is not the one to leave you on edge,
In his kingdom there are no fallacies no hedge,
No one can hide their wrongdoings or the grudge,
So the one who was bad to you here,
Will be punished there, that’s his pledge.

Thing to remember is that God is there for you,
He favors the one, who is always true.