There was a time when I wanted to be freedom fighter; and then there was time when I wanted to be an army officer; and then there was time when I wanted to be an engineer. My dreams kept on changing with time but i never gave up because i used to have a very good hand writing and that good hand writing was attributed to "fighter" series of Rotomac pen, which had a tagline "kyunki fighter humesha jeet ta hai" (I wanted to justify the post title here) and they did have another tagline too "likhte likhte love ho jaaye" but i didn' like Raveena tandon.
There was one thing which I realized pretty early in my life that I can't be an army officer because i never liked running, the only time I used to run was when some stray dog in the street used to bark at me. So as a 4 year old, I wanted to be the guy who sings inside the stereo we had because I liked the songs he sang. I destroyed three audio cassettes by puling out the magnetic tape so that I can find out who that person is but I was heart broken (almost a jaw broken too by the thrashing I got from my dad :P) as I could find no one there.
I left the aim of being the guy who sings inside the stereo and decided to be the guy who makes bowlers dance to his tunes; I wanted to be a cricketer like Sachin but as luck would have it I realized pretty soon that I couldn’t be a cricketer as I was not good at defending game; Also 1996 was the time of emergence of Rahul Dravid and VVS Laxman and not
Ravindra Jadeja Yusuf Pathan, 20-20 was not invented/born till then else I could have been a great 20-20 IPL player atleast ;). People always tried to curb my attacking style of play which would have easily given Harbhajan Singh Virender Sehwag a run for his money. Heart broken again I left this dream of mine too so as to move forward.
In between I wanted to be a
terrorist freedom fighter, about which I have written detailed account in my other post and simultaneously I wanted to be private detective too inspired by the TV series Byomkesh Bakshi but my habit of cross questioning didn’t go down well with my teachers at school, specially when I used to ask them the reason for asking me a particular question and not my friend. I still remember the case in which I uncovered the conspiracy involving the school’s bell boy and my social studies teacher wherein my SST period was always extended by full 45 seconds although no one showed any interest to my findings but I was really inspired by this quote MK Gandhi at that point of time “First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win”. I don't know why but my case ended at laugh part only which shattered my dream of being Sherlock Holmes.
Finally I was in last year of my school and I wanted to be a doctor but the thought of studying for at least 10 more years just made me chicken out at last moment (I missed the cut off in entrance too but my failure can easily be attributed to psychological effect of the thought I had) and I joined engineering college and realized that I always wanted to be one, I loved playing with electricity, electric wires (some time live ones too) but soon I realized that engineering is not about electricity and electric wires only, it is about assignments, monthly tests and semester exams, if MBBS was 10 year pain then BE surely was 4 year torture in terms of workload we had.
So now I am an engineer but if you ask me I don’t like to be one because I don’t get the mental peace doing work I do and neither there is any satisfaction and I am saying all this because I think it sounds cool. To be true I feel I am working in best job which a person like me can have and I do get paid handsomely at the end of the month although I would not mind if the monetary benefit is increased because that will only increase my mental peace and satisfaction which really is an important aspect of one’s life.